I MAY BE THE WORST PERSON I HAVE EVER KNOWN
Photo, Nijwam Swargiary
“Conviction should actually grow throughout our Christian lives. In fact, one sign of spiritual growth is an increased awareness of our sinfulness.”
1Ti 1:15 This [is] a faithful saying and worthy of all acceptance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners, of whom I am chief. NKJV
This verse has always puzzled me, since some suggest that Paul’s claim to chief sinnerhood appears to be in present tense. If this is true, there is a real need for elaboration here! We all know that Paul was a man sold out to Jesus! There is no way to discount his tireless devotion to Christ. You can’t deny his holiness unto the Lord! With that said, how can he possibly claim to hold the title as the chief of sinners? I am sure he believed it about himself. Could it possibly be, that in the light of all God’s grace and mercy toward him, all the revelation that had been given him, that he felt like the worst of all men.
I beg to differ with Paul. Though I do not know him personally, I believe I deserve the title more than anyone else. This is why: Though I am not a man playing the hypocrite and I am very sincere about my love for Jesus and the people around me, I am convinced I am the worst person I know personally. In the light of God’s great mercy, grace and blessings poured out on me, I believe that I am the least deserving person I know!
“The miles are getting longer, it seems, the closer I get to you - I’ve not always been the best man or friend for you -but your love remains true and I don’t know why - You always seem to give me another try…”
Hearing the words of this song a few days ago, I burst into tears. The lyrics struck a nerve so deep in my heart! I realize that I am still so unlike Jesus, after all these many years, yet, I have come to peace with this feeling of being the worst of His kids! Drawing nearer to His marvelous light is painful because His light exposes my many flaws. O but friends, though the process is painful, His unconditional and fathomless love, keeps me coming back to Him, over and over again. It is in looking to Him, as blinding as His glory is, that we become more like Him and until the day we see Jesus face to face! Be encouraged He so loves us anyhow! HALLELUJAH! TO GOD BE THE GLORY!
Psa 17:15 As for me, I will see Your face in righteousness; I shall be satisfied when I awake in Your likeness.
1Jo 3:2 Beloved, now we are children of God; and it has not yet been revealed what we shall be, but we know that when He is revealed, we shall be like Him, for we shall see Him as He is.
Every blessing!
— Tom